Saturday, March 31, 2007

Lady Julia Asked

Lady Julia gave me 5 Questions , see:

she said...

faninho :) I'm happy to interview you. Let's see...

1) It's a beautiful spring day. You can do anything you would like to do with one restriction, you cannot spend any money. How would you spend your day?

What a question...Beautiful.
I 'll have all the time to please my Lady. Up and down. (Of course I'll be a good boy and ask her before what she likes best).

So: get up at 9, dress in a way she likes me to: just jeans and stripped to the waist; then bring her tea and two toasts the way she loves it.
I‘d kissed her gently on the forhead.

Then let her sleep again a little further as she likes this most, despite the toasts are getting cold. She likes things (and persons) waiting for her.
I like to be they waiter today. She loves it.
She‘d like the smell oft the toast ...and take another nap.

I meanwhile would clean up the kitchen, (the kids are at not at home) and the bathroom, take a shower and go like that in her bedroom again.
I carefully would give her a wake- up foot massage. She would want more and when I reach her thighs, her tighs..!, I would be so excited that I could‘nt resist of asking her of going down on her -iif that would be a fine idea. It's a question without words. I know she would reject me, but you never know and today she makes an exception and she lets me ... What a lucky day!
Spring -air comes through the open window.
After a while she‘d say: „I like to be your wife and even more I like you to be my husband.... never forget this even if you miss something“
Like in a good movie.
An hour later she's had a bath of luxury with me sitting on the side and telling her the news of our business which we run togehter. Or whatever she likes. I help to decide what to wear..(see Q#3). Later than we go by feet (no money!) to a nice lake wich is not far from our house. The water is still to cold, but we are lying in the grass. She wants me to totally undress... "Do you dare..? With me dressed? I think there is nobody around...."
She knows I'm shy but I do as suggested.
And because it is obviously indeed nobody there she askes me, if I would be too submissive to „rape“ her a little bit ...
now and here. I'd say "no" and would do so.. ..

2) Think back to when you very first recognized that you were drawn to female domination. Did anything in particular happen to lead you to this or to help you recognize you felt this way, or was it more gradual awakening?

Since I was a boy I always was in great awe with women.
Despite of this and in addition I had kinky fantasies.

So I focussed on women and tried to forget about the kinks.
That worked for a while.

It changed later when I got to know my wife, with whom I experienced
some hot times in different ways.
I could not realIy tell her and to myself what I was up to ..
I found then many things in the net which led me to the term "Loving female authority" . This helped me so much to find out who I was and what I wanted!!

Those ideas did change my life! I then focused more on my wife‘s needs and to women in general.
My wife: she became sexually, spiritually (again) the focus of my world- a husband should have it like that.
I tried to direct my desires in a way she could deal with; and this was more or less: trying to please her, live up to her expectations...serve her (without her noticing this to much) So the two kinds of craving came somehow together while I was serving this woman, who drew out my attention so much to female domination- without yet embracing it herself.
But on the other side of the coin she is growing slightly dominant.

3) If you could pick out your wife's clothing for one evening, an evening spent at home with only you, what would you choose for her to wear?

She owns a kind of Jil Sander- style dress. That is „simple elegant“; grey with a touch of olive and it is like a big open men's-shirt with a firm fabric. It has just a big button facing from the top down to her thighs. Arms half to the elbow. No decollete. She creates the decollete by leaving the first three buttons open.. or more. The same appears at the other end. It depends on her mood if she lets open how many ? buttons, and chances are good that you get a glimpse of her noble breasts as well as of her shiny thighs. There is nothing like that ... You don‘t have to ask how much I adore her style. She doesn't need more. No stockings , no boots, just flat shoes...and her bare feet. Underneath? A simple white tight bra and a french cut pantie (when this is the one with the highly shaped legs??) would fit.

4) You've been given 10,000 euros with the proviso that you do something totally decadent. What do you do?

I‘ll take the money to organize a „Leashed Walk Around“ - it goes like that: Companies for beauty, style, journalism, TV, underwear, cars etc. are allowed to advertise and therefore to pay to any participating women let's say 100euros.
She has to bring along one (or more) man /men of her choice at a collar and a leash, dressed after her decision (with limits, so that children can watch this as well)
They meet in the middle of Berlin and walk through the famous portal of the „Brandenburg Tor“ down the alley and demonstrate for the control of men‘s power through women. I'll serve champagne to the girls and ladies, leashed by my wife as well.

5) Imagine that your wife has fully embraced the dominant role in your relationship. She has so completely embraced it that your home has a fully equipped dungeon. In your fantasy of fantasies, what does she reach for first?

Fantasy, OK!
As SHE likes to minimize efforts, she would let me ride „The Horse“. Which I was to construct for us of course.
I was very impressed, when I first read about this. The device was described by a female reader (Ms Lee) on the website of Elise Sutton (and in her book „Female Domination“):
„In it's simplest form, the "horse" is basically a sturdy saw horse with a pointed cross beam“
The beam is positioned a little to high for me to ride on it with both feet flat on the floor.
She would simply have me standing naked with spread legs on the wooden board „with my organs resting on it“. My wife would fasten my hands behind my neck or even better connected to a rope hanging from the ceiling.
So her part would be done.
She would leave some suggestions in my ear to think about how to improve my performance as a her husband.
She‘d give me a good time for myself to think about her words while the situation would become more and more uncomfortable for me with time, so that I had to move from one side to another -until at least I would be "properly riding" the horse.
She is coming back soon, kissing me softly while I am enduring this painful ride and she then beginning to ask me tenderly all the questions which I normally liked to avoid giving answers. I couldn't sidestep a bit, to be taken literally. She tells me that she is totally convinced that my reactions and answers now given in this state of „slight discomfort“ will represent my truth.
It is yet not real pain, (she says...), but this could perhaps follow later... If I would not be honest, she would leave me on the horse. Then she would do some phone calls first - I would hear her then talk in the hall - maybe with her sister, which can take ages..... Her sister is a very conservative and beautiful lady, who likes to hear my voice too for a moment. My wife would come with the telephone and hold it to my face and her sister would ask me how I was of course.... There are many other options to think about what could happened while I am in this position and action while my wife would not have to do anything.
So it depends on my answers and my openness to my wonderful wife, my cheerful expression of love and devotion to her, if and when she will be ready to let me off the horse again.

She is also convinced of me being much more skillful after such a ride, when I then am to please her...in many ways. That's -and saving effort on her side- is another reason for her to reach out for the horse first.

Thank you for interviewing me Lady Julia!

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Small Talk

SHE:"...and you are sure, you don't want to...?"
He : "No, I said I don't have to. I like to please you "
SHE: "Yes, so you don't have to now, I think. You can have it later ...is that possible?"
He : "it is possible, you don't like me to have it?"
She: "No...of course I do. But today I like that you don't have it now...because I think you like that I say you don't have it now...is that right or not?"
He : "uhm..yes.. in a way that's correct. I find it arousing"
SHE: "Thats what I mean. But let's stop talking... I want you to...you know like last time.. you know what I mean."
He : "Go down on you."
SHE: ".. don't name it, honey, just do something... like that"
He : "okay"
SHE: "until I say stopp.."
He : "- - - "
SHE: "--"
He : "okay"
SHE: "no, you don't have to think you always have to be too slowly..."
He : "okay"
SHE: "Why don't you do it more often like that, when you know I like it so much..!"
He : "-- ??? I thought you don't like to have sex ...... hm...too often..."
SHE: "Thats not really sex....is it? And it is not too often...right?"
He : "I'd love to do it more often for you."
SHE: "Then do it more often....now!"
He : "okay...."
SHE: " and it is not only for me...it is for you too"
He : "yes"
SHE: "so hold on..."

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

With Springtime

Due to the changes in my life and realizing that I am more or less submissive to my wife I recognize changing in my behavier.

Earlier I used to complain that I was not lucky in my marriage. I always missed something. Let's call it (loving) female energy. And sex wasn't satisying and happend only from time to time, rarely.

SHE said once that the males would loose the need for sex and for the female with age. That was without regret.
(As if she waited for my sexual energy to vanish.)
But the opposite is the case. It is increasing in a way. I need the female energy more than ever.
I adore the female more than I did when I was young
But I need sex more as a close-to-her-feeling than as a relief (in a female body on a everyday basis).

Missing that the fantasy of being "her slave" or beeing "her knight" (which I prefer) -you name it- helps a bit to endure the all-day "nothing.."
I 'm not asking for what I need or what I desire instead I try to please her.

So this winter I was doing anything that she wanted and demanded- and that is sometimes a pleasure for me, but sometimes really not-.

Am I closer to her now? Do I have a little more of what I like?

Perhaps in the sense of not having so much trouble
and not arguing with her.
She really becomes more stern with me. Does not ask anymore - it is more like "you do please the vacuuming now...." etc.
No charming way. No Misato- way, if you know what I mean.
(It might have to do with her hormonal changes. She will be 50 next year.)

So that's exactly like submissive boys want to be treated. Isn't it?
But I'm not sure if that is what I want. In a way it is not nice and in the other way it's just half way, but difficult to push further.
The days are running by, and as "the slave's job is never done" I am getting a bit tired in my position because nothing of all the stuff I am looking for is happening, even if I really don't "want to expect" it.

I know it is difficult. And so it seems for many of you hubbies out there too- as I can read often in the blogs.
Just having dreams. Little steps in reality.

We don't eaven have the time to talk. For her to tell me what she is missing. Time for me to say what I miss. The time of going to bed mostly differs 2 hours - and the wake-up times do as well - we have rare opportunities of "coming togehter".

Do women have no need for being close togehter with their men?
Earlier she used to say, when I was asking for sex "too often", she sometimes liked just cuddling.
So I did!! But there is no cuddling at all, even when I don't mention (with words and body) sex and forget about sex (if that would be possible).
It is just boring. That's what I'm feeling these days.

I need to go ahead further.... it's spingtime.